Tuesday, 9 January 2018

New year thinks

Oh why hello there blog! Happy new year to you!
I feel like I've already done all my reflective 2017 thoughts everywhere else I am on the internet so if you want that feel free to go find it. Basically it was mentally rough and I needed a rest and for christmas I got one, yay!
Now that we're 6 days into the year I can safely say I am feeling relaxed and productive and excited to keep trying and maybe even try a bit harder. At what, no one really knows but it's a good general goal to have.
I know having an annoying brain doesn't magically go away but I'm just focusing on the fact that at the moment I feel positive.

Here are some of my thoughts for this new year:
I want to spend more time in my garden, I can't imagine I'll always have one so I should make the most of it.
I would like to browse more of the internet away from just the feeds I follow. And also just look at a lot more stuff on purpose whether it's online or off.
Make more things! Last year I really held myself back with worrying about money and wasting supplies and would anyone like it, is it a waste of time and all that stuff so this year I hope I can just ignore that complicated mixture of valid and anxiety driven thoughts and just make more stuff. All I really want out of life is to look at nice* stuff and make nice* stuff. It's totally achievable I need to stop stopping myself.
*what nice means is open to interpretation obviously.
I'm thinking I might do a 365 self portrait project. An ongoing theme for me is hating photos of myself/just generally feeling weird about how I look but not wanting to and maybe I should once and for all do something about it. Maybe this would help?
Worry about everything less.

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Anyway, I have been procrastinating all morning and it's already quarter past two and I need food and then need to actually do some work. I've got a lot of scans of drawings from last year that I'm making look nice so I can maybe make badges or something from them and I should really get back on with that.

Addition: We're now 9 days into the year and I didn't get around to posting this. I'm looking forward to longer days so I can start waking up early again and feeling like I actually have time to do things but I'm also reminding myself that now is what I've got and thinking something that will happen in the future will fix it isn't a good mindset. Anyway, I'm still working on those scans so see you later ^_^

Wednesday, 20 December 2017

December so far

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I started the month making a zine from last months drawings as I have done for quite a while now. Only one more time though, then I'm done with that project ^_^ I also won some x-files magazines on ebay (I'm going to make badges out of them) and drew a lot of Scullys and Mulders in my sketchbook.

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Mum and Dad came to visit and I had my first ever green tea latte, I approve, it's a good time and we went out to see the Christmas lights.

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My Grandad died earlier this year and we'd lost my Nan a couple of years before so it was time for my mum and her sisters to sell the house which meant no more apples from their apple trees. I remember every year nan would sit and peel, chop and freeze bags of apples for everyone and we'd make crumbles and cakes from them. We also used to hook the hose pipe in the trees and run around under it in the summer. Mum took some apples from the garden one last time and I asked her to freeze me a slice of the cake so I could have my last apples too.

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An accidental portrait while filming this video. I enjoy the creepy eyes.

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Will met a dinosaur and I got myself some pink eyeliner. A successful day.

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I got these shirts finished at last but haven't been able to take any good photos of them yet so they aren't in my shop which is super annoying. Winter is difficult. (and so is photography)

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Beautiful Pixel. He's doing much better now than he was and he's put on a lot of weight too ^_^

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Our decorations finally went up on Monday, exactly a week before christmas. I don't like them to be up for too long before hand because they just start to blend in and I don't really see them and feel like it's fancy and special anymore but if we'd left it any later you don't feel like it's christmas yet and kind of miss the whole thing. Luckily Will found time to shimmy up into the loft before we became complete Scrooges.

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When mum and dad were here they bought us a poinsettia which I love, they're so pretty and having plants around is a good thing, but I don't know how to stop it from dropping leaves and I hope it isn't bald before the end of the year.

I hope you're feeling less neglected now blog, I have 5 more vlogmas days to do and then I'm sure everything will level out again. The appeal of doing vlogmas is so weird, it's not like it gets me anything except less time...and videos to watch in a few years to remember what I was like now. Oh how I love to document my life (* ^ ω ^)

Sunday, 17 December 2017

Doing vlogmas

Hello blog. I have been neglecting you because I've been having a go at vlogmas and there are only so many things I can edit and update in a day :)
I still have a weird relationship with making videos. I don't think they're very interesting and the idea of people looking at them makes me cringe and yet I keep making them and sharing them. I can't explain it but it is what it is.

Here are a few of my vlogmas videos so far. I'm managing it everyday so if you like you can go to my youtube and see the others, hopefully there will be 8 more before christmas too. That actually sounds like a lot of videos still to make, how am I managing this?!

Saturday, 25 November 2017

Pet shops and keyboards ~ weekly vlog

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A quiet, quick sort of week but tomorrow is Will's birthday so that'll be more exciting ^_^

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This embroidery is listed here. I love embroidery, it's slow and awesome.

Saturday, 18 November 2017

Cut, draw, tat ~ weekly vlog

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These sleepy faces ^_^

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I feel like I might be finally getting out of this awful creative shit hole I've been stuck in forever so, thumbs up.

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It was time to finally sort out my hair. Too long, too brown.

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Thank you William ^_^

Tuesday, 14 November 2017

Christmas designs for redbubble


My mum asked me to design some Christmas cards for her and I thought I'd add them to my redbubble as well. What made me think to do it was that I thought they'd make good stickers. Redbubble often has deals on buying multiple stickers and I think the pudding, tree and sprout especially would look really cute as die cut stickers on presents or cards or something (sorry pom poms and fairy lights, I'm sure you'd be a cute sticker too). I ended up putting the designs on most of the available products though and they make for some pretty cute shirts and mugs too (if I do say so myself ^_^)

It always feels weird posting Christmas stuff in November (I very much try to ignore Christmas until at least the start of December) but if you're getting things made and posted you sometimes need to start a little early, what can ya do *shrugs*